A rock-star personality ; A child-like mentality

blog URL changed

2005-01-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

hey everyone..i changed my blog..

here's my new URL..

www.unashamedtruth.blogspot.com

Link me up k..

2005-01-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

******

Sha got admitted to hospital..I know she won't be reading this but I think you're brave,given the circumstances you are in i would hv been a nervous wreck..so hold on..we'll all be there for You..You know that.And if you hv the slightest bit of doubt just want to let you know that all of us love You..k?

2005-01-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

:(

is it my fault? I feel like crying..

don't want to go school on Tues..haven't started studying also..

2005

2005-01-15T11:34:00.000+08:00

yeah i know...HAPPY new year is gone..it's time to update my blog and to tell you how bad this yr has started off.Lots of things hv happened within these 2 weeks...firstly, it hasn't been a great yr for C9.Diana got into an accident..and Sha..i'm really worried for her.Hope nothing happens to her.I guess things hv been going downhill for us since we started poly ar..i mean, we dun get to see each other..we're stressed up most of the time..got some stupid projects to complete.Things just keep happening..like why? And these insecurities keep getting to me cause i seem to get along with ppl frm my course but i don't really hv close frens?Maybe i hv found some but it's different. Don't know ar..ask me what i look forward to..nth actually..not even hoidays cos it just mean you get a job or you slack at home and go to orchard more.well i'm sorry if i can't stop lamenting..just that i really want to go back to 2003.Even though it was O level and all at least i had great fun tt year..2004 just went by without me realising it.hahahaha..ironic isn't it? It should hv been a milestone cos i met so many new faces and studied in a new environment..but no i don't even feel it.I don't feel tt i've started a new term...i'm having mid-term test next week and i thought we barely started school? Before we know it we're in year 2 and i feel older than before and we get to do BMR.well WHOOPDEDOO....i can't wait.ok i think it isn't tt bad...but it's not peaches and cream for me now. I think the only good thing is tt this semester is slack..really relaxed i don't feel like i'm doing anything at all..and lastly before i post this i think i've been misunderstood.

2005-01-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

back again...busy busy..hv to hand in photography assignment this friday...but got other things on my mind.

Somehow i just can't understand you..and you know..i'm tired..tired of trying.but i can't turn my back and walk away.

Bye sucan :(

2004-12-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

hey guys..i'm back..

Yesterday I skipped school to send Sucan off..He'll be leaving for 8 yrs..to Inidiana..that's a long time..can't imagine if we finally get to see him when he comes back to Singpaore..we'll be like, 25 yrs old? The guys were saying..by that time some of us hv probably got married and hv kids...kind of true ar..scary man.hahaha..Anyway, Nadhar,Durrah,Adil,Jieling,Brandon and me sent him off ar..some ppl last minute cannot make it..wenqi sprained her ankle on the way to the airport..get well soon girl. It was great seeing the rest again esp the guys..it's been a long time..some of them i haven't seen since collecting o level results..After sending Sucan off, we headed to Tampines..didn't really do much..just slack ard(our fav hobby) at McDonalds..After that we went to Toy'R'us for awhile..hahaha..quite fun ar..mostly we just talked..try to catch up on each other's lives..ask abt their classmates..poly life and all.never do much..in the afternoon all of us went home..i think maybe tmr during countdown some of them can meet up,since they're all going esplanade or orchard.anyway,we'll all be meeting up soon..hopefully this time round more ppl will be able to make it..luisa's coming back on feb...so i think she wants a class outing.

Today went to chijmes with my class for photography class..it's really fun.Too bad i didn't hv a camera with me.But it was so interesting taking photos at different angles..hopefully next week we can go back..after tt i didn't go back to sch..went to the doctor's and got an MC..real sick..running nose..sore throat and freezing cold..arrgh..ok..guy..happy New Year..have a great 2005...it sure doesn't feels like a new year though.

2004-12-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Although i didn't really feel the excitement this yr ar..maybe cause we have started school..worse timing to have man...Besides,last yr i celebrated Christmas with cloudies..so it was much more fun.

Anyway,things i did these few days..

Thursday had a Christmas party with my cell..Had quite abit of fun..cause almost everybody were there..the guys bought 10 chickens..in the end cannot finish..hahahhaa..hmm.Isaiah was saying Christmas's a time of reflection of wad you've done for the whole yr..i think this yr i matured spiritually and also in my thinking ar..it's been a yr of landmarks in my life..but I dunno if they're good or bad..for one, i started a new phrase of my life this yr..when i started poly.Still don't think it's a good thing..found a new clique in poly..got separated from my cloudies..but I'm gald in these few months we've been apart..when we met up it's still the same ppl, same feeling.Miss that so much..i'm thankful tt our friendships aren't superficial..those tt don't end once you've gone ur separate ways.Went thru quite abit too..life in poly isn't a bed of roses...back then when i just started it was practically like a bed of thorns.Anyway,yeah..tt's to 2004.

Yesterday,went to church for Made in Cornerstone..the youths were superb..but they didn't win eventually.they were the runners-up..it's alright..you all did a great job anyhow! They lost by a mere 16 votes only..wad a pity..after tt,went to orchard to meet Jensen to countdown..wanted to meet emelia also..but she was with her frens..so the 2 of us just avoided the crowd and went to starbucks. Everybody were spraying Confetti and foam at one another..but the crowd was really crazy ar..it was jam packed.It's then i wished i was out with cloudies..or the whole of BPC..den it'll be much more fun...cos when you're in a big grp you go crazy easier.hahaha..it's proven k.

today went out with Sulin to catch up..really nice to see her again..at least we feel comfortable with each other ar..had lunch tgt but went home soon after for dinner..and here I am typing this entry! it's 11.57 p.m..AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..it's gonna be over in 3 minutes!! and back to school on monday.ARRGH!

Merry Christmas in advance

2004-12-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

Everybody's feeling the spirt of Christmas..feeling excited about receiving presents, going out and feel the atmosphere..But you know something..

Christmas means much more than that.

We are celebrating the birth of Christ,our saviour. Without Him we won't be even here, much less be celebrating Christmas. You don't need Christmas carols, Santa Claus or presents to stir up joy if you know God.. why not take the chance to get to know the God whom you're celebrating for this year?

2004-12-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

i don't understand You. Can you just make up your mind for once?

friday, 9th Dec 04

2004-12-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!

I've got something interesting or 'newsworthy' to blog about.

I went out with cloudies..all 8 of us..hahaha..when was the last time all of us went out tgt?I can't remember really..maybe abt 326557 years ago. Missed the fun so much..loved being so comfortable just talking and screaming with you girls.Love talking about our sec school although i'll love it even more if we were actually still in Siglap.I just feel i've suddenly grown up so quickly involunteerily when poly started. I missed the feeling of being sheltered,being nagged at,having the same timetable tgt,having the same recess time tgt,having a fix classroom-one tt you can call yours and feel cosy in,i miss seeing familiar faces everywhere becos there're only 1200 people in your school compared to 12,000. Miss wearing school uniform,wearing the school tie every friday ( but never in the right way cos we refuse to button our top button) Miss cutting queues at the canteen just because you're a sec4 student and it's an unspoken previlege tt you are allowed to cut queue (no arguements allowed on this point) and basically,everything else. I can even barely believe i am an ex-siglapian, let alone the fact i've been out of sec sch for a year. I don't know, everytime i think about Siglap, I'm just overwhelmed with sadness..i feel tt when i left I also left behind lots of memories..just little things to humour myself,but even now as i try to remember i can't think of much things to mention...I'm so afraid when there comes a day,i can't remember anything abt my sec sch and i can only say, 'it was the best time of my life,it was fun but i can't remember anything else.' that's sad. I know, I'm enjoying my poly life, i love my course, i embrace the new friends that God has given me- I love them to bits but still,there's no class unity,just cliques. I change class every semester, i only can have 3 friends becos the tables in the poly are 4-seater tables.

I MISS SIGLAP !!!!!!!!!
to the cloudies i'm gald we're still very much in one anothers' lives..love you girls..*hugs*

2004-12-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

updates about school.

HAHAHAHA.

like as if you guys wanna hear abt it.You all had (or are having)this little exciting experience anyway...

today had my first lecture on productivity and service quality...my CDS..it's a little like marketing..but i think it should be quite easy to pass ar..as long as i do my assignments tt is.this is like the first subject i hv homework on k...my course subs better..no homework at all..only got projects..

formed my project group for persuasive comm today. Got to choose our grp so i ended up with James and Emee...and some other guys. I hope we hv the same grp for the rest of the subs...I hope I end up in the same class as James for the next 4 sems..hahaha..den it'll be fun.

Next week tutorial starts..hopefully I can get to talk more to my classmates ar..still dunno most of them tt well yet..hahaahaha...exciting semester ar...taking photography this sem...and my tutor is Ms Ng...BEST...confirm can pass..hahaaha..ok..i know most of you who are reading this wont understand but NVM

2004-12-06T09:57:00.000+08:00

school starts today..bla..thankfully this week no tutorials..don't hv to face some classmates tt i do not particularly feel comfortable with..

about the pig out:i don't know if i can stay overnight..even though i can crawl to trena's house but you know my parents.

about that day when i flared up: A lot of feelings had gone thru my mind and i've decided to get over it.If i explain further, I'm afraid it will aggravate me again. So tt's it.

2004-12-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

You guys can go on bosting abt me being punk'd.I thought maybe i could join you guys at orchard.And after punking me you all didn't even bother to call me and say it was a joke.Left me hanging thinking tt you all really cancelled the outing.Thanks..it's not funny.I was really looking forward to seeing you all...and instead i was being outcast.So i need anger management.So you guys always do tt to each other.BUT GET THIS.IT WASN'T MY BIRTHDAY.I DON'T NEED SUCH TRICKS FROM YOU ALL.Now all i can feel is tt you all just didn't want me there in the midst of all the fun.

there it goes again

2004-11-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

hey peeps..i'm back...sorrie for not bloooooooooogging...I HAD BETTER THINGS TO DO OK.hahahaha...JK..the reason why i din update was becos firstly,i had nth much to say..secondly,i was scolded for exceeding the internet hrs (36 hrs how to survive sia..somemore my whole family uses the net) thirdly,i'm sick.yes,again.all thanks to my oh-so-wonderful virus infected brother.hahaha..(note the sarcasm) ARRRGHHHH!!!!just bear with the blog skin k?i'll change it soon.i think it's quite nice mah... :( *sob sob* anyway,got my timetable.Gonna be in the same class as James and Emee..an some other ppl...not really looking forward to it.everyday dismiss so late..wahlao..where got time to do projs man?Hmmm...otherwise life is good for me.hahaha...i finally stopped work..my last day was on friday..so i can go out for the whole of this week...so whoever wanna go out can ask me k! =D ok...tt's it for now...will update abt my new classmates and school work soon..ZzzZ

2004-11-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

You know what?

Will it hurt to just spend 5 cents to reply an sms? Or will it kill you guys just to type slightly more so tt you won't sound like you're pissed off at me? Why do I feel like I'm living a life on my own,and others are going out with each other without telling me.And cancelling their plans at a snap of their fingers becos they got something more INTERESTING to do.And to the guys who nv get it,so it seems you're only nice to girls when you like them huh?and when you don't you simply just ignore me.I'm supposedly ur GOOD FRIEND remember?oh.But i guess you forgot. You're not even reading my blog anymore i think.So it doesn't matter. Seriously,but what did I do to ALL of you? NOTHING.

2004-11-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating for so long..

Nothing much has been happening i guess..
On sunday we celebrated emelia's birthday..actually her b'day is on 13th..but we decided to celebrate earlier..had a lot of fun..food and ambience was nice too..but abit ex lar..But i guess the worst part is tt James wasn't there.He was supposedly coming back on last thurs..but till now still no news frm him..haiz..miss him a lot.He's always the 'star' of the grp..so on sunday felt alittle weird tt he wasn't ard.hope he comes back soon...

you know what?this blog is too commercialised.i can't even write anything i want.Cause right now i hv lots going thru my mind..but it's all frustration...and i feel pissified all the time..dunno why also.And where hv all my sec school frens went?It seems like they've suddenly disappeared..and the only ppl i'm going out with is owen,emelia,vanessa,gina and james.I mean,of course i enjoy their company but seriously where are the ppl i've known for the 4 yrs? Everyone's like caught up in their own life..sometimes i'm at a loss on how to reach to all of them.

:astly,let's just say i'm feeling anti-Y chromosomes these days. 99.98% of guys seriously are just clueless.

2004-11-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

Lesson learnt: people whom you care for the most hurt you the most.Goodnight.

cough * clears throat*

2004-10-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

ARRGHHH!!!!Down with a sore throat..think my Bro spreaded it to me.Must be him..cos Now my mum,his GF and me all sick...tmr still hv to work. haiz...my throat is killing me. Ok..yest caught white chicks for the second time...with Christine,Andrea,cheryl,Peihan and Johnathan.Before tt had lunch with Johnathan,Peihan,my bro and weizheng..bumped into a lot of ppl yest.saw a grp of siglapians,Jensen,Iskandar(whom WZ say very cute.hahaha),haikel and some others...today i stayed at home...and slack.wad else can you do when you're at home right?ahahaha..

ok.hv to sleep early....hv to reach town at 10.30. =(

:(

2004-10-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

okay.this time my doodle-board decided to turn its back on me.WHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY!!!Now all my posts gone. *sob sob* sorrie for not updating my blog..hmm.let's see.

Sunday,after service Emelia and Jensen came over.Emee played with sims2 while Jensen played with my star cushion..too bad.I also like my cushion..so I won't give you.hahaha.. :P wah.Emee is a real SADIST man...create my sims until so ugly..my heart went out to the characters..haha. wahlao.next time dont let her play with my sims2 liao..spoil only.hahahaha..

Monday,went to meet Vanessa,Gina,James,Emee and Owen.But guess wad,in the end,i only got to see Van,gina and james for an hr cos all of them had to rush off..so much for an outing.I think I only saw James's face for like 46 Minutes.But he still said crappy things to make us laugh.Tt vanessa ar..so amused tt Emee's flip phone hv music..hahahaa..LOL.den after those 3 left,Owen(o-when) came..so Emee,owen and me watched white chicks.hahaha..funny movie..one of the best flicks i've seen this yr.Funnier than dodgeball.

Today,went out with Trena and Bernard..took neoprints..went to LIPS cafe..hmm..slack awhile..went to hv earthquake at Swensen's.Told Lame jokes.(ok,mostly they were from ME)den Ber went tuition..me and Trena headed to city hall for my job interview..it went well..hope can get it ar.den we went to bugis for awhile..den went home.ZzzZZzz...sigh.seriously,is Singapore so small tt there're only 5 shopping malls you can shop at?and each of them you know the way so well you can blindfold urself and still be able to find Seoul Garden. If NOT,when you're in the mood for outdoor activities,there's only Sentosa you can go.Tt's the only decent beach where the water is clean enough for you to swim in.(besides Swimming pools where 60% of it is chlorine).ok.I AM COMPLAINING. but sometimes i really wish there's smth better to do in SG..and tt there're less man-made stuff around here.*yawn*

Myabe i should go play sims2 now.Cause in Singapore at 10pm,you're either clubbing,hanging out at coffee shops,having a BBQ,sleeping,watching TV,using the net or playing games.ARRGH.ok.I'll stop complaining.

when emelia met Natalie....

2004-10-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

Thursday went shopping with emee..hahaha..bumped into Esther and her Sis at the MRT station..den we headed to bugis..then bugis street,followed by cineleisure,heeren,far east,lucky plaza and FINALLY Ngee ann city.hahaha...bought 2 tee-shirts and 2 pairs of button earrings..(pokka dots and light blue ones)...hahaha..very fun.but too bad didn't hv enough RESOURCES to take neo-print.Then we saw Gina(in a bottle) for a while..she passed me SIMS2 cd tt Valentine burn for her..but i couldn't launch the game.We keep talking in weird voices tt day...den unconsciously I talked in tt voice infront of the crowd and this guy who was standing infront of us turned and gave me a weird look..which i did not notice.but Emee did..den she said,"ehh..dun talk in tt voice leh." den i asked,"how come?"den she said when the guy was gone,"just now tt guy stared at you leh.."LOL..wahlao so funny..i think he thought i had an operation on my voicebox when I was 5 yrs old or smth.hahahaah...ok..out of point.

btw,i bought SIMS2 yesterday....no wonder Eunice is not online..must be playing the game.hahahaha...it really rocks sia...SIMS2 ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!!!!hahahahaha.....I LOVE SIMS2!!!!!! :P ok...here's my schedule for tmr.

morning:church
late morning:lunch

then,go home.
then,bathe.
then,maybe sleep awhile if i'm tired.If not,play SIMS2.
then,if i was sleeping,wake up and play SIMS2.
then,eat dinner.
then,play SIMS2
until maybe about 2A.M.
Don't even need to go MSN,friendster or my blog.(which is this lar.DENG!!) By pass all that and concentrate on helping the SIMS create their community lots and hope tt I won't create so many SIMS with romantic aspirations if not their whole life will be a flirt and they go ard WOOHOO-ing ppl which is wad Trena is doing to her SIMS right now.haahahahaahaha...wahlao.....i asked her how to build the 3rd story of a house dne she tell me she dunno.Busy helping her SIMS to woohoo each other.what a great help you are.ok.I shall cut the crap...hahahaahaha...stupid lar those SIMS..all they can think about is Money,Being a family man or woman,career,bring popular or woohoo.hahahaahaha....ok.did I say i wanted to cut the crap?ok.I shall go now...

one last thing.The cheat code for money for SIMS2 is MOTHERLODE.hahahahahahaah....ok.smart codes they come up with.BYE!

OUTING =)

2004-10-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday: Went out with Trena,Bell and Eunice...we headed to Cinileisure..ate at LIPS cafe..it's a routine lar..forever going to LIPS to eat.hahaha..it's good to be out with them..even though we've seen each other's faces for 4 yrs.LOL.nah...it's still very comforting to see them.Throughout lunch we were talking abt Hamsters...Cause Eunice and Bell recently bought Hamsters..hahaha..Bell's hammie sooooo cute...it's a Roboski..(or how do you spell it?)so cute the face..look like Hamtaro..ARRRRR...I ALSO WANT A HAMSTER! hehe. then, we were quite bored cos it was only 1 plus..so we bought movie tickets for A cinderella story..thank God it was still showing..cause i wanted to watch it long ago bu missed it..den i thought it wasn't showing anymore..we took neoprints as usual. Cinderella story was nice..I cried abit ar..HAHAAHHAAH...*fingers to lips* Chad michael Murray is cute..ar.but he's engaged..*cries again* after which,we walked ard at Far east for awhile...den had dinner at Long John Silvers..wasn't feeling too well yest cos I was having my monthly discomfort..arrgh.ok...tt was it..too bad Sha didn't join us yest..hmm.Hope you feel better sha. =)

Today: Ginli came over today..so long nv see her already..even though we're from TP..hmm...so hard to see each other in school..cos she's frm design school..hahaha..tt crazy woman..so funny..she wanted to open my fridge den she open wrong side...LOL..ok.hope she don't read my blog. ehhhhh....we took photos on her digicam..but in the end dunno why the photos were deleted..sighs.nvm..next week next week.hehe..she swam..den i accompany her cos obviously I can't do so due to my MONTHLY DISCOMFORT.(came at the wrong time lar) when I'm in the mood to swim den cannot.haha..we had fun..tt woman supposed to study for a quiz tmr...but slack at my house till 6..hahaha..ok..hope she got smth done today..hehe..but I think she went home to chiong Sims 2.. =( wahlao..so jealous..someone playing Sims2 already..ok..actually it's more den 1 person...Trena,eunice,valentine,Gina and Ginli all playing Sims 2 liao...WAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I ALSO WANT SIMS2!!!!!!!!!!! And note to Trena:stop talking abt woo-hooing...hahahahahahaahaha...JK..ok..bye peeps...

TOMORROW:SHOPPING!!!! =D

2004-10-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to say anymore.I guess after all these,it still boiled down to nothing. NOTHING.

2004-10-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

hey.Finally got something to update about...

I know i've been in a self-pity mood recently and Yes,the previous blog was actually arrowed to some people in particular and it is actually for Cloud9.For a while I thought nobody was coming to my blog anymore..too caught up with their stuff and I dunno...I guess I felt hurt and I kept thinking why? But yeah..thanks all of You..i should snap out of my self-pity mode soon..cause I'm loved...(right?you all better say Yes.haahahaha) and my dear cloudies do read my blog..so now I'm comforted..ok.so thanks for all the scolding.. =)

well.Today i finish my last paper and it's offically holidays now. *grins widely* But still holding my breath..really hoping I'll pass my papers...if not I'll hv to retake..sighs.Ok..i'll enjoy while I can.

I went out with my CMM frens today..together with diana..there were Owen,Emelia,James,Gina,Vanessa,Diana and me.Julia only joined us for lunch at Bedok..after which she went to meet her frens. The rest of us went to Esplanade..was the first time Diana met the rest.den she told me.."and I thought we were crazy." ahahaha..heard tt Emelia? LOL. So Fun lar..we went esplanade..took some photos and slack there while James cut his toenails.Vanessa and me took a photo tgt and we imitated Ben stiler frm Dodgeball.Damn funny..after tt we walked to Raffles city..where we saw the flying dutchman, Rod monteiro and Glenn ong..people were singing to win tickets to watch the eagles in concert. But what's the point? I rather go to planet shakers concert.hahaha..den in the end we headed to the McDonalds( or MugDonna, as James would pronounce in the filipino accent) to hv our dinner.hahaha..so funny James..he's so comical..i hope we end up in the same class next term again..sighs..i hate the thought of changing classes..i keep asking WHAT IF my class sucks..i hope my clique will be with me...at least some of them ar..Leonard,James and Owen will be the ultimate competition. Major Havoc session.hahaha...aww.but i heard we'll be divided according to our cross disciplinery subjects.shucks.I chose a CDS tt nobody chose...hope they chuck me with the Arts Appreciation ppl..haha..so i can be with my frens. =)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!screams!!so happy...i can play the sims!!!! hahaahaha...YEAH!!!for the next 7 weeks...I'll be the couch potato you've nv seen before..if you thought i was one in the past, now i'll be the SUPREME COUCH POTATO ( why supreme?because it's James blue tee shirt.it says SUPREME.hahahahaaha...ok i know.so crappy..hahaha.but who cares :P )

okok...take care people.ASK ME OUT!I GOT 7 WEEKS!hahahahah...

2004-10-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

is it just me or what? Why do i keep having this feeling that nobody bothers to read my blog? or at least, people whom i want to read my blog don't? Are you too busy? Or you guys just can't be bothered? Or you decided to skim pass my link because it's just me and i'm not significant enough to You all to just leave a tag?

FOR YOUR INFORMATION IF YOU HAVEN'T NOTICE I HAVE A TAG BOARD.IN FACT,IT IS A DOODLE BOARD AND IT IS MEANT FOR PEOPLE TO FLOOD ME WITH IT BUT OBVIOUSLY I JUST NEEDED A TAG BOARD CAUSE MY DOODLE BOARD IS PATHETICALLY EMPTY.IT IS LOCATED ON THE EXTREME LEFT IF YOU WILL JUST LIFT YOUR FINGER AND SCROLL DOWN.I MEAN, IF YOU BOTHER AT ALL,THAT IS.

2004-09-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG SUCKS.
MY DOODLE BOARD SUCKS.
MY FRIENDSTER SUCKS TOO.

2004-09-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

arrghh.
The exams stress are piling up...Somehow i feel tt i won't do well..i also don't know why..sighs.

=(

stressed about over stuff too...always asking myself this quiestion: should I?should I not?

sighs.

:) it's all over.well, almost.

2004-09-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

It's official. I'm done with all my project for this semester!! yay!! You won't know how relieved i feel now...hehe..but anyway, exams are in less than 2 weeks time..ahaha..nvm..gonna chiong next week..this weekend going to enjoy first. =)

Updates for the week...

Tuesday: After school went to watch The Terminal with Daniel...nice show.but ending not nice..(nut nice) at first abit awkward ar..cause i don't know him that well..but after awhile it was alright lar..hmm.

Wednesday: Nothing much..had presentation..thought i screwed up abit here and there..but it's only 5%..hahah..so nvm.

Today: After a LONG day at school,went to meet Jon at tampines..den we headed to bugis to catch Dodgeball.hahaha..den we went to Billy Bombers for dinner. I didn't eat much due to the overdose of whip cream i had earlier in the afternoon in my GREEN TEA frappuccino.haha..den Jon so funny..he asked.." still drinking green tea?" hahaha..my fav sial.The portion at the restaurant was so big..i see His food ar..haha..den i had onion rings..but also nv finish lar.Both of us were complaining abt the food portion.."no wonder it's an AMERICAN restuarant."haha..but the deco at Billy bombers was really cool..i really felt that i was in America in 1940 or something..but too bad..we had to finish our food in a record time cause our movie starts at 7.45pm..den so silly..i kept looking at the clock on the wall,which seems to stay at 6.35pm all the way.den i realised it's actually not working.

hehehe.

Dodgeball was funny.In a crude way..you laugh at its stupidity..and corniness..hahaha..it's my type of movie lar..and I know it's Jon's type of movie too..hahaha..we wanted to walk around Bugis for awhile..but nothing much..so decided to go home. Talked about our sec school friends,teachers...all the stupid things I did..my friends did..he did..his friends did..well.I think i've accustomed to the poly life..although there are still lots of hippcups,i think the people in CMM are really great and they helped me a lot in fitting in..I've found people whom I can talk to and laugh about silly things with them. I've found people who acts more stupidly den I do..hahaha.tmr is our last tutorial for the semester..and as TB016 tgt..haiz..kind of sad.I already got used to my classmates and we get along well generally..I sure hope i don't get a shitty class next term.

But..i think nothing beats my siglap friends..they understand my habits more..and i think with them you can talk about more things without you feeling stupid.ahaha..today was fun..although i was abit tired..and he was tired too i guess. But i hope we'll be able to meet up soon again...maybe this time with the rest of 4H.. =) I got a treat today again..but i felt quite bad ar..i mean, it's Jon's hard earned money..hmm..very nice of him..really really glad we got to go out today... *smiles again*

nothing can get me down

2004-09-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

sorry..haven't been updating..but den again..it's only been 2 days..oh well.hmm..I'm in high spirits today.why?

Firstly,cause i got my first A out of the many many projects so far.hahaha..*grins widely*

secondly,Johnathan sent me a funny video abt a terrorist who got pissed off abt the reporter using subtitles on him.

thirdly,i'm got GDF out of my hair..now left presentation for Med Soc on wed and Journalism.

fourthly,i'm gonna watch my first movie in 2 months..or maybe longer..DODGEBALL. LOL..

okai..tt's all for now...hmm.maybe i need to remind myself more often tt exams are in 3 weeks time.but it doesn't seem to be working.hahaha..I promised to do so many things and to go out.. kind of forgot who I am supposed to go out with and when to do some things..arrghh!! haha.but hey.it's a good thing right? it's better to sit and home and mop about not being asked out. =)

2004-09-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALVIN [PENGUIN] !!!!!

quite a few things hv been happening recently...I just feel tt everything comes and go so fast..i don't even hv time to reflect or to just catch my breath.If not, i'll be left behind.Everybody's pissed,stressed or simply can't be bothered with anything tt is going on around them. I want so much not to be bothered about anything..but I can't..I'm too burdened,concerned about stuff...and I'm not complaining cause that's how God wants me to be.But it's overwhelming at times..when people just prove to me time and again that they need help. sighs.. I really don't know..and i feel lousy when I don't know what to do...

on to the next thing.I know that this blog is such an eyesore now. The pics are gone, the links are gone and my profile is incomplete.But i've no time to manage my blog right now so just bear with it alright? It'll be up again in the next 2 weeks or so..arrghh.But who cares? Nobody tags me anyway.

Break my tears...

2004-09-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

Oh my tian. what happened to my blog?! where are my Links??? where are my Tags?! ALL GONE. My blog has been cut..sighs..after all the effort i put into it..i even changed the colour of my tag-board today to beautify my blog..but they freakingly cut my HTML away.

Everybody who's reading this..You can Make me feel better by...

1) start Doodling at my doodle board

AND

2) Give me your links to your blog...

*cries* I don't need this to add on to my frustration now...all i want to see is my pretty blog at the end of my crappy day..and even tt has been taken away frm me.Thankfully My entries are still here..if not i'll just break down yet again.

2004-09-14T18:32:00.000+08:00

I got back my Ess gra term paper today. Got a C plus. For a moment I forgot what happened on Saturday... i just
cried and wondered what on earth I did to get all these Cs. I mean, it's not like i left all my work till the day itself to do it or something. it was the same feeling I felt last term..it just came back again. But i must remember the word...i must remind myself that this is just a season that I'm going through..and everything happens..for a reason. I wanna get this semester over and done with. I don't care if i do well anymore. I feel that I can't do much at this point of time to pull up my grades anymore. I'll wait till next term. Hopefully by then i would be in another season of my life and everything will be brand new again. i guess i'll just wait.

2004-09-14T01:39:00.000+08:00

Ever felt you want to be close to someone but you can't? Simply because the person is too busy with its own life to turn around to see who he stepped over. And there's nothing much you can do, and just move on...but occasionally you wonder what will it hv been If...If..If you all had been closer. but den again. I think too much. Maybe the person just got a small foothold in my heart.

who I am

2004-09-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

WITH EACH DAY I WANNA GET CLOSER TO YOU.

2004-09-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

COLOUR. BLACK AND WHITE. COLOUR. BLACK AND WHITE. COLOUR. BLACK AND WHITE. COLOUR. BLACK AND WHITE. COLOUR. BLACK AND WHITE. COLOUR. BLACK AND COLOUR WHITE. COLOUR BLACK AND WHITE. THAT'S MY PROJECT BTW. as you can see,i'm not in a right state of mind now.haha..OH NO. IT'S NO THE STRESS.I JUST FEEL HIGH.

The ending of a semester leads to a new beginning

2004-09-11T01:57:00.000+08:00

I thought I just started school.I've just started to get used to poly when i realised the Finals are approaching..in abt 3 weeks time. Cool but also scary. I didn't actually know a semester was THAT short..anyway,more updates.

Had GDF tutorial today again..my favourite tutorial cos you get to sit there and slack throughout. And i don't know, it seems like during GDF everybody starts acting extra hyper and crappy.LOL..i think James and Simin started it lar. Today hang out with Jonathan, Penny, Shirana,Kelly, Simin,James and Gina throughtout the tutorial..very fun..and I think i'm now comfortable with them..but we're all gonna split up into different classes again.Den it would be all weird and the cliques will appear again.sighs..I really hope tt they put me with some ppl i'm close to in CMM..

I'm gonna miss my class when we change classes next semester..we have a few cliques in our class but generally all of us get along well with each other and most importantly, they're all genuine and there's no politics in class.can't say the same if certain people in CMM were to end up in the same class with me.I don't know..it's not tt i want to judge anyone or stereotype them but they don't seem like such nice people to mix with and my policy is tt if i don't feel comfortable with them i try to stay out.

well..alright..it's been a great day..school was fun.lessons were great.It's time ot start on my projects this weekend..so i probably won't blog.. =) goodnight!

quizilla rocks LOL

2004-09-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.

What season are you? (pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

2004-09-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

boring day at school.Lecture was boring..thankfully James sat beside me so he kept me awake by warming up his vocal chords.ahaha..funny guy. Last time we thought only every friday he will go crazy..now it seems like it's becoming a daily affair. ;) Mr leonard PS me today.ask me go for lecture den in the end he disappear. *blah* and Haikel still has his weird hairstyle. His counterpart,Vince04 cut his hair but i don't spot any difference. Okai i know, i have nothing better to blog.lol..but it's the little things like that that makes the day interesting.LOL. Weird Nat. =|

after sch was on the way to the library to bookdrop something.(guess what is it?)
If your answer is a book, smart girl! or guy. hahahahahahaha..ok let's continue.

i bumped into Wenqi on the way...talked to her and we ended up taking the same bus home.Talked about a lot of stuff..just upddating each other abt our lives and our friends..seems like JC life is *bleah*.won't want to go there.Glad i didn't.not that i wanted to or what..but yeah. Talked abt 4H and how much we miss our class..meeting her for lunch tmr..can't wait.Alright sweethearts..goodnight..have fun at slumberland..lol..

2004-09-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

Playlist--> Dare you to move by switchfoot and running after you by planet shakers

I did a lot of thinking today..Today's service was really good..he talked abt the anti-christ and how he will come and corrupt the morality of people..interesting message but really scary too..i just hope when the time comes i'll be able to dicern what's from God and what's not. Isaiah scolded my cell about our attitude towards things today. I think what he said was true and i felt convicted cos i don't think i'm been adopting the right attitude on certain issues.

Which makes me wonder and asked myself.

When was the last time i actually spoke up for what's right and make a stand about things even though i knew everybody would just laugh it off?

Answer: a long time ago.i can't even remember when.Instead i just kept quiet or laugh along with them.

When was the last time i procastinated or conveniently forgot to read the bible and pray?

Answer:everyday.

When was the last time i sweared?

Answer: yesterday.

arrgh.I know..it doesn't seem like such a big deal..but i just realised that it is..cause i don't want people to look at me and just mark me off like everyone else..i'm sick and tired of compromising and i think i should start speaking up for what i think i should. I want to look at a person in need and pray that through my life it will be an encouragement to him or her.I won't be weary or down because i know there are people going through worse issues than me. Yeah...

2004-09-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

Well i've been pretty happy for the past 2 days.

good news number 1) i got my first B since i started poly.. know,not a big deal but at least i'm making an improvement.

good news number 2) i never laughed as much as i did before as yesterday ever since i started poly .All thanks to James..hahaha..cushions tt can fit 10 people are nice.haha..you crap king.

good news number 3) i'm starting to get used to poly and the people here..still miss my siglap friends but i'm learning to appreciate all my TP friends too. They're great people. ( and they're all reading my blog..LOL)

hmm.funny how when you're happy things like slow downloading of msn 6.2 can spoil your mood.or when ur dad comes up to you and tell you that the laptop is not for downloading songs.

My date with a jackass quiz

2004-09-02T14:46:00.000+08:00

WHOO HOO! You've practically got him in the palm of
your hands! Whatever you're doing, keep it up,
it's working like a charm! ;D

Your Date with a Jackass (part 6)
brought to you by Quizilla

Teacher's Day!!

2004-09-02T11:10:00.000+08:00

My friends are deluded morons who don't give a hoot of what people think of them.Which I think is great.I relate totally with them.

Tuesday I went back to Siglap for Teacher's Day celebration..supposed to meet them at 6.30am but i reached at 7.30am..saw a whole lot of people..too bad the SP people had to go back to school for exams..and some of them couldn't make it at all because their exams were in the morning. Sob..My friends wore their siglap PE tee shirts back to school and many people thought they were eccentric or smth. I wanted to wear it too, but i couldn't find the shirt. Then, i screamed when i saw Vicky.I thought she was having an exam in the morning.(SP mah)

I walked into the school with the rest while my frens were already in the school..

Vicky:hellooooooooo?didn't you even see me?
Me:ahhhhhhhhhhhhh Vickyyyyyyyyy!!! I thought you had exams?
Vicky:no lar,last minute postponed
Me: *screams somemore*

LOL.The rest of the day was DAMN fun.It started off on a bad note cos initially the principal didn't want us to go up and watch the concert.In the end all of us gate crash and they had no choice but to let us in. Saw almost half my class there( pretty cool considering almost all the guys are in SP)..Thomas,Fadhil,Nadhar,Chee shan,Maybelline,Wenqi,Cutiing,Jieling,Durrah,Diana and me were there.( hope i didn't miss out anyone..) Den we went to visit Mr wee..ahahaha..miss him so much sial...i miss his nonsense..we saw him and all of us started crapping with him.and he was telling us how he's gonna gorge himself when he reach Batam.DAMN cute lar..hahah..

In the afternoon,everybody else started going back to school for lessons and exams,den the whole of cloud9 (yes,all 8 of us) went to whitesands..(they insisted on going there cos they miss the place)ate at McDonalds.Me and Diana Very funny...we bought 2 boxes of noodles,2 bottles of POKKA GREEN TEA, 2 lime magazines and we headed to MCdonalds...haha..sort of remind me of B1 and B2(bananas in pajamas lar)den Vicky,trena and aishah all went to school..Diana Was on MC (supposedly sick,but was jumping and screaming all ard the whole day..lol.)Eunice WENT to take MC,den Belinda had an appointment.YP followed Eunice to the doctor..so me and Diana headed to Cineleisure..bought identical skirts..ahahaha...ok lar,not really identical..but the colour and deisgn same.only tt hers is a wrap around skirt and mine's not.Den we were talking about how much we miss each other..*sighs* Eunice,YP and Bell came..den all of us went to Taka to eat..slack around..talk about nonsense...took some photos..den wanted to take MRT home.But there was an accident(according to the news,someone committed suicide at Redhill mrt or smth) den we had to wait for 1/2 hr before the next train came..by the time i reached home it was about 9.30pm..

Overall,it was a fun fun fun day..never regretted skipping school.lol..really hope to see my cloudies really soon again.. =)

2004-08-30T20:24:00.000+08:00

currently listening to: Best i've ever had by vertical horizon (it's just playing in my head actually.wahlao..so emo sial)

sighs.sighs.sighs.SOBS.hmm..i also don't know how to put my feelings into words..it's more than confusion...it's...sigh.don't know lar.. =(

2004-08-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was CCN day..sighs..it was quite boring lar.Didn't get to walk ard much cause i helped out at my class drink stall. I was in a sulky mood yesterday afternoon cos the shift which was supposed to relieve us did not turn up..only a few of them came..but it's ok lar...i wasn't really pissed with them. I was more irritated with Ms ng.wahlao..she think sell 100 cups of drink very easy like tt..esp when it tastes like crap.Then we went to watch the band for awhile..haha..quite cool to see all my CMM frens playing...but they should hv chose a better singer.haha.

James really made me laugh yesterday..it actually make the selling of drinks more fun lar.hahaha..he kept imitating Ms Ng..hahaha..think already also want to laugh.After CCN i went to meet my dear cloud9..but only got Eunice,bell,3na,diana and me.Sha went home and was too tired to come out.den Eunice went home..nv go TM with us..we hang out for awhile,den 3na and Bell went home for dinner while diana and me walked ard. Then we bumped into Andrew they all.So all of us,Alvin.Andrew,Samantha,Diana,geraldine,cassandra,Ah guang, Ah tan and vince04 went for dinner..the girls just sit and chat.den Ah guang went ard doing henna on everyone which turned out to be ummmm...ummmm... no comments.LOL..luckily i din let him touch my hand.hahaha..den he drew on Andrew's shoulders "ma ma wo ai ni"..damn funny..and Andrew couldn't stop showing off...and Alvin was like saying,"maybe we should just walk straight and not turn behind becos everyone's looking at Andrew."hahaha..had lots of fun with them too..made my day much better after tt. =)

TUESDAY I'M GOING BACK TO SIGLAP.........YEAH!!!!!!!!!! can't wait to see all of them...but Jon don't want to go back ar..and i think some of the 4H guys not coming too.oh well... =( i miss them so much..but wont get to see them.sighs...

what sing you songing?

2004-08-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Finally handed in my med soc project today..took a weight off my shoulders..but now i got ess gra project to rush..hmm..

Today went out after school with Alvin and Johnathan..went to Pasta Mania..haha.Then somethind funny happened to Alvin.We ordered out food..den after tt we sat down and talked.den alvin asked,"eh..how much was your meal?" I replied,"$8..yours $13.60 right?"

Alvin:"yar..how come ar?"
Me:"i got 30% student discount mah.you don't hv?"
Johnathan:"yar..why you don't hv?i also got leh."
Me"maybe you look too old."

den alvin went to the counter to demand for his discount.

Alvin:"just my luck.They said the promotion starts at 2p.m..When i ordered my food it was 1.59p.m."

LOL.POOR ALVIN.thankfully Johnathan and Me ordered at 2.01p.m.MUAHAHA...

den..i told them the MUAH CHEE joke. They laugh like crazy lar..den Johnathan claims it's lame..ehh..i know you find it damn funny lar..just admit it.LOL..

after dat we headed to swensens for $1.39 ice cream.I din eat though.Sore throat and running nose chasing after me.

I LOVE MY SIGLAP FRIENDS.hehe.

check out my boring life

2004-08-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

currently listening to : break away by kelly clarkson and 1985 by bowling for soup

Sunday : went to city harvest church after service with Pris and Abel..for United live..haha..it's nice ar..the worship leader is cute.but that's beside the point. ;) hmm..but overall i think i still prefer my church..hehe..but united live was good. then on the way there pris was telling us the MUAH CHEE joke.LOL...eh now it's a popular joke in my course now....

Monday: school till 3pm...went to tampines library with owen, shawn and michelle..in the end din find anything for my project.

Tuesday: now at mac lab trying to do my APEL online thingy but apparently it's not usable on mac..anyway,got make up lesson at 3 but don't think i'll be going..whheee...going home to complete my med soc project and catch up on my sleep which i seriously need.I'm sleeping at like 2am everyday....

YAWN........

The new and old

2004-08-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm.Looks like i'm still living in the past.practically.I just sms Leonard..and i told him to enjoy the rest of the 5 min ( it was 11.55pm) before his birthday was over..then he was like,today 20th already leh..so i was like 23 hrs and 58 min late..that's how lag my brain is i guess..haha.

ANYWAY.

Ever since i entered poly i find that i'm not really being myself.not that i can help it..just that many things hv happened and i'm now the way i am. I have to find myself....I have to.

check this out.

The old me.

1.is almost always happy
2.almost nv gets stressed up over anything
3.is comfortable in school
4.acts like myself
5.don't give a hoot abt what you think of me
6.when someone tells me,"i don't like you"..here's my reply."so what?everybody else does."
7.not afraid of being loud

The new me

1.is almost always stressed or crying
2.stressed up over everything
3.feels lost in school..and invisible sometimes.
4.acts like myself only to some people
5.will be worried if anyone hates me
6.when someone tells me,"i don't like you"..here's my reply."oh...what did i do?"
7.am pretty quiet with some people..

I WANNA FIND MYSELF I WANNA FIND MYSELF I WANNA FIND MYSELF I WANNA FIND MYSELF.GOODNIGHT.

2004-08-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

If i didn't have God in my life i would have ended it by now.

happeeey Birthday!

2004-08-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my beloved Eunice!!!!! *muakz* Love you lots...thanks for being there for me always..and for 4 yrs of friendship..i'll see you tmr for lunch :) and in another 29 min time will be....*drumroll* Leonard's birthday...!!! LOL..ehh..i didn't know it until about 5 minutes ago..hahaha..ok..lots of thanks to you too..you've been a really sweet friend =D But still,you won't get a kiss from me.muahahaha...

Anyway,today sent my brochure for printing.cried at printing shop again casue i totally inverted the canvas and the whole thing was screwed.thankfully the guy did adjustments for me so it was printable.but it's still bad..the spacings are uneven and i just hope to get a C.sighs.

switchfoot for you and me

2004-08-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

Sorry that this is not a proper entry but i don't exactly feel like blogging now.Anyway, I think i just like songs where you can hear the strumming of acoustic guitars clearly..hmm..I think this song pretty much sums up how i feel now..so there.

"Learning To Breathe"by switchfoot

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

So this is the way I say I need You
This is the way that I say I love You
This is the way that I say I'm Yours
This is the way, this is the way

2004-08-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Why isit that i can talk more comfortably with my siglap friends whom i'm not so close to then my poly friends who are supposedly close to me?

sighs.I'm so messed up..

how do you tell or show people that you're not who they think you are?when everything is so complexed and it seems like there's nothing you can do to improve the situation? Do you run away?be someone completely different? or stay miserable? I think i'm all of the above.

Just talked to Jon on msn..at least he's having a great time at poly..at least he's comfortable with the ppl there..sighs..don't know why..i felt relieved that i got to talk to him..i told him abt my probs..miss him a lot..and all my classmates...i want to stay in siglap forever..i think last year was my golden year..and this year?A year to be written off totally.

2004-08-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. Thank you Leonard. You're the best !! *hugs*

oh well...

2004-08-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

i got back my med soc result today..got a C plus..kind of expected it cause i din really know how to do the test but i'm still abit upset over it. and have i mentioned that i'm really stressed up cause of my brochure?Today at mac lab i felt so helpless..and stressed up and everything just piled up on me..and i broke down. Vanessa and Tiffany were so sweet...they kept saying things to encourage me and made me feel better..thanks girls..i feel like a jerk. i'm always thinking of my own feelings and i tactlessly neglect other ppl's feelings...big big big sighs...i think part of the reason i din do well was because i did the test with my own strength and did not prioritize..so that's a lesson learnt..if i leave everything to the Lord he'll carry me through this..even if i have 8 projects to complete....

On the way down,I saw you and you saved me from myself..
and i won't forget the love you've given me.
On the way down,i almost fell right through,
but i held on to you.

I'm totally in love with.......

2004-08-11T15:03:00.000+08:00

currently listening to : twenty-four by switchfoot ( you all should download this song!!!! simply love it..)

oh.Only one by yellowcard is nice too. ;)

btw,this is the 2nd time i'm typing this.The com hang up on me the first time when i was about to publish the blog. ( ^*@#!!?@#* ) Remember: i did not say anything.These are just symbols.. *smiles sweetly*

Actually,i wasn't planning to blog at all. I think some ppl knew that..but I didn't really see the point in blogging when nobody wanted to read my blog..i mean,my tag board is pathetically sparse..so i felt pretty sorry for myself.But anyway, now i decided to write cos i thought of something to say..

Anyway,A few weeks ago something sad happened to my primary school friend.She committed suicide..i heard the story from my friend..It's affected me somehow although i wasn't close to her..and well, It sets me thinking is life is so uncherished that you choose to end it when you're 17?haiz..so sad sia..

Another question.Have you ever felt that you wanted to say something but you din hv the guts to because you feel that you're the only one who feels this way? I've been feeling this way quite often recently..Sometimes i look at my friends..I want to say smth..but they feel that what they're doing is right..it's ok since everyone is doing it so why shouldn't I? I just don't know how to open my mouth and make a stand.And to me, some of the things..i dunno..really saddens me. To me,they're more than just shopping partners,people I care enough abt to ask them out for lunch.And a lot of people think, since that's how they want to lead their lives,why should you care? I know...but i also know i've compassion and love for all of them to see them like that. I sobbed for them..how else would i know? sighsssss...

Take me away...

HAHAHA

2004-08-06T02:20:00.000+08:00

i know i'm not in the best of moods but i can't help but say that Leonard's blog has really made me laugh..now i know your lame-o-meter has broken its record..hahahaahah..ppl..go read..it's really funny... :)

sighs

2004-08-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

I just have this feeling that i'm being hated by my school people...
sighs.

big yawn

2004-08-04T01:03:00.000+08:00

heya...

Just reached home at 11.45pm..after Mid-term test(to which i'm pretty sure i trashed)..i went out wif my bro,weizheng,johnthan,Edwin and Gary...went to esplanade..took some photos..wah..the scenery is nice there..at the merlion..i felt like a tourist.haha..then after that went back to katong..waited for WZ,Edwin and Johnathan to finish their class..den went for supper at bedok..Thank God for Edwin's car..i mean,his dad's car..hahaha..yup..that's abt all..now it's abt 1am..time to wrap up the day.Gdnite ..

p/s:how how how? =(

2004-08-03T18:34:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.back again..

Yesterday went to Belinda's house warming..LOL..so fun!!All thanks to my friends..saw all 8 of them yesterday.. =) They nv fail to make me laugh...and it's really great to see YP,vicky and Bell...Then we were lounging at the clubhouse and just talking..until it was dark..then we wanted to take photos but it was too dark.so we used three nokia 3200 and shine the flashlight at the person..so everybody went,'ehh..technical crew get ready!' hahaha..and we looked seriously scary sia..esp Aishah..she looked like a ghost can..den Diana wanted to cry whem vicky went off..sighz..think she's really having it bad at poly..worst den me..we stayed till abt 10.30pm..den all of us went home..AND.....

Today!This morning we headed back to our secondary sch...lovelyyyyy siglap sec to accompany sha to collect her Cert..saw all the teachers..we actually went to the canteen to have our lunch there cos we missed it so much..i miss everything abt siglap!!!and i miss our Old principal..the new principal suck big time lor.He saw us and he went,' wad are you doing here?' I mean,come back visit teachers also cannot meh? i miss miss miss miss miss siglap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm getting busier these days.Or at least,i feel like it.It's not really abt the workload lar.I think my social life is seriously packed..i'm going out on Friday..Saturday going Sentosa...Next tues got BBQ...and i think national day we're planning a dinner for Cloud9...and more to come..It's good lar..at least it helps me take my mind off things. Yeah..starting to feel better lar..i can't say that i'm feeling great now..but..still survivable..(is there even such a word?)

Here are some of the pictures we took yesterday....

at bell's house..diana wasn't there yet..

scary pictures we took in the night..lol..that's aishah..

Me and YP...

Me and belinda..the 'star' of the day

of course that's me..who else looks so prefect?

Me and vicky!!!

All of us plus belinda's little sis! The whole of our act cute gang! certified chio bus...muahaha. (look wad Trena did to Vicky's face..poor vicky mummy..)

muahaha..happy bunny

2004-08-01T00:42:00.000+08:00

congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud

which happy bunny are you?
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thinking deep

2004-07-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

Firstly, Happy birthday Yolanda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*hugs*

Was supposed to go for her b'day party today..but last minute can't go cos got family dinner...anyway,tml going for Bell's house warming...hahaha..can't wait..so long nv see her liao..and it's been such a long time since the whole of cloud9 actually met up. =)

Talking about thinking deep. For the past few days i've been feeling really upset..until a point of time when i really wanted to give up and i kept asking myself what on earth is the problem with me and things like that.Then today during cell group,Isaiah was asking...'do you love yourself?' The first thing that came into my mind was,'Of course lar..' then he continued to ask,'do you accept yourself the way you are?' that's when i realised i don't love myself that much after all. I've always been asking myself these 'why' questions...why am i not tall?why am i not fair enough?why can't i be more popular?why can't i hv a musical talent like so many ppl do? And he talked abt how you much you are going to love others the way you love urself. Hmm..i think the message came at the right time cause it's been a really dry period for me and i feel pretty lousy of myself..i think i couldn't accept the way i am and keep thinking i'm not good enough for anything. And now i know that if i'm going to feel this way abt myself,that's how i am going to treat others too..i won't be able to accept them as who they are. It's sort of a revelation for me and after cell my mood lifted a few notches..still a bit of hipcups here and there..but yeah..think everything will work out fine after awhile.

To everybody who's reading this....
I love you the way you are...whether you are thin,short,fat,tall...a big hug to all of you!!!
always remember..even though you may not believe it..but God created us the way he wanted us to be so there is no need to compare ourselves with others...i know it's hard not to..i'm still trying..but just want to let all of you know that.. =)

on-goings in my life..

2004-07-28T12:20:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since i updated you guys abt what happen and wad's going on in my daily life.

Sunday:
After church hung out with Sabrina,Joy,christina,Emelia and Lavonne...went to Taka..wah.wrong day to go out..so crowded.And all of us were so bummed out after the service.actually wanted to go Far east but but we changed our minds.On our way to the mrt station.we saw this guy performing..he painted his whole body bronze and was holding a bird each in his hands.(even the birds were bronze) i think the birds are not real lar..but can flap their wings..anyway,quite interesting lar..den lavonne and emelia stood there and take photos...We kept laughing on the train on our way home.reason being lavonne and sabby have funny laughter.LOL...so duh right?It's really fun to hang out with them lar..last time i din used to hang out much with any of my church friends except maybe for my cell group..but i think i should go out wif them more often =)

Monday:
After school,went out with Samantha for dinner...Talked about stuff...mostly abt guys..hahah..and friends..then we took neoprints..haha..but i still don't know how to post it on my blog..

Tuesday:
After school..had lunch with Kelly and Gina..went to engineering canteen to eat...den we met Vincent..went Parkway to play pool.Actually it's more like i watched Kelly and Vince play..cause they're both gd players...hahaha..so paisey...if i play surely white ball go in more than the coloured balls...Gina left at 3 to meet her friends..after that we went back..Kelly went back to school for training and Vince and me went to pasir ris interchange..Guess who i bumped into?Jon and Hilmi..LOL..sia lar..miss them a lot..all my siglap friends..Talked to them abit on the bus..Hilmi looks slightly different now..i think he did smth to his hair..Jon? His hair grew longer.ahahaha..(like DUH) he still looks the same lar..still quite cute.hahaha..

Wednesday:
Feeling quite crappy today cause i'm having my cramps.wah..so painful sia...(someone pls sayang me) and throughout my media and society tutorial i could hear my stomach grumbling(or growling..or whatever the word is)...then,i went to the lab to try to printout my timetable..but wrong password..later hv to go cyber centre to change.and here i am,in my starving state ,typing my blog entry.hahaha...

=(

2004-07-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

hmm...
i think i should keep some things to myself.haiz..my heart feels damn heavy right now.
alright..lecture at 1pm..hope things get better soon..

Time: 23:09

2004-07-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?
DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME?
WHY?

continuation

2004-07-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

Vindicated by dashboard confessional rocks

2004-07-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

A lot of ppl hv been asking if i feel better and stuff like that...Truth is,i don't know. 1 moment i can think that everything is fine and the next moment,i'm not so sure. I mean, the slightest thing can change my mood completely and i really don't want this to happen. I'm really hard to rely on the strength of God to pull me thru...I know i'm putting up a facade.i'm juz trying to take my mind off things,that's all. I don't want to habour any anger,hurt,disappointment and jealousy for anyone but it's kind of hard to do so...i know some ppl are dying for me to talk abt something else and can't wait for me to shut my mouth up.but i'm sorry..that's abt the only thing that's going thru my mind now. to Trena,Diana and Sha :I'm in it with you...don't worry..well..i'm still glad i hv you girls wif me..so that we can laugh tgt despite our brokeness.Love You..

2004-07-24T13:09:00.000+08:00

To Gina,James,kelly,Aishah,Trena and Samantha...

You guys are a source of strength for me...i think i'll be a pain in the ass for quite a while and i've been so thx so much for putting up wif me.All i want to say is,i wish i can curl up in a hole and hide there forever...think i was deceiving myself when the blatant truth was staring me in the face...My time in TP has been made less shitty because of you guys and some others and i think i can count on you to pull me thru...One positive thing i can look forward to though.Things can't get worse than this.

lazy to think of one..just read my entry

2004-07-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

I know wad you guys are thinking.That i hate TP because of the workload or because of the subjects i'm taking.That's not true though.I'm ok with the workload,well,most part of it.And the subjects i'm taking are ok..except for Essential Graphics.I'm just not used to the environment in poly and some of the ppl there....i just feel pretty disorientated and stuff...

Well...Elections are currently going on..today i went to vote liao..to everybody:don't worry lar..i voted for all of you! The guys are kind of stressed up over the elections thing..ehh..don't worry lar..with our hot pink and green banners, everybody in business school would hv noticed!LOL...*hugs*

I keep seeing Sha and Trena these days...haha..gd thing lar.despite seeing them everyday i still feel very glad when i get to see them..maybe it's becos of the comfort i feel when i'm with them.hmmm...wad else?im beginning to like my class more..juz watched mean girls wif them today..i thought at first we're very cliquey and all,ut we're all starting to mix ard..haha..

hahaha..one last thing...i think i kind of expected wad was gonna happen lar.but i'll still say it.I'm FRIED...LOL....go figure.

.....

2004-07-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

i only have one thing to say.

I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.I HATE TP.

i hope i've made myself clear.

elections....?projects?school? pfffft

2004-07-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

*phew* finally handed in my logo design and my journal today..wheee...can relax for a while..but 2 wks later got assignments due again...but i think i won't do well for my logo.cos i juz realised Miss Ng is marking our work..and according to her if use photoshop will get higher marks.i drew it out lor..i thought Miss chua was gonna mark it.oh well...and my journalism grp assignment get back liao..got a 'C'..sheesh..are we dat bad?i don't feel so stress anymore..yeah..praise God..but Emelia ar..still hates marketing to the core..gurl ar..sometimes the thing is not stressful but it's juz you..don't think of it as a chore and it'll come naturally k?

Yesterday had a long day at school..had lunch wif Trena, Eunice and Byran at the cafe..school ended at 6..den i went to meet Sha and Trena..after dat we sat ard wif vince while the rest(alvin,andrew and all)hang up their posters.they're all running for election lor..To Alvin,Andrew,Haikel,Vincent,Kelly and Sheryl..don't worry lar..will vote for you wan!!! =) after a while..Trena went home..den left me and sha lor..den sha cannot stop harping abt her guy..wahlao eh..*pengs* siao cha bor. LOL..we left school at abt 8 plus..den alvin they all insist on sending me home..wah..so paisey..cos i normally also go home myself one..wad to do?being single is like dat one..HAHA..then they very bo liao..go and take picture wif Ronald McDonald..and they placed it on their election poster can..haha..den vince bought ice cream for me..felt so bad..i threw away without finishing it..cos i din felt like having ice cream at that pt of time.opps...Nice seniors i've got huh?lol..yar lar..damn lucky to know them..my classmates are unbelievably sweet..i mean the guys...yar..generally all the guys i noe so far are really nice...the girls also lar..but i click wif only some of them..think maybe after all this,i'll rather hv cloud9 with me..*sob sob* i know..all good things must come to an end..we've to move on blah blah..but come on,how many friendships actually last for 4 yrs?and it's a 9-way friendship can...sighz..and i know the others feel the same way too..aiyar..miss you gurls lar..i know some of you all are having a hard time at school too.we'll meet up soon k?love you!!!*hugs* ok..nitez ppl...!!! =D

Finally..

2004-07-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

I got to see Diana and YP today!lol..we had dinner together at cineleisure..i just came back only..*yawn*...damn tired..tomorrow hv to reach school at 8am...i miss them so much sia..i was sooooo glad to see them today..i saw them and i just had this feeling that went,'hey..these are my 2 friends whom i've known since forever.'It's kind of comforting to see them again i guess.I took neoprints with also..but i dunno how to put in my blog lar.haha..so too bad peeps =P

nothing much to update actually.i feel alittle better now than i did the past few days..and...i think i've found someone in TP whom i kind of like..oh well.

nice songs....

2004-07-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

ok..i'm really bored and i don't really wish to talk about my emotional status right now.In no order of preference...

1.Jet-look what you've done
2.maroon 5-she'll be loved
3.avril lavinge-my happy ending
4.counting crows-accidentally in love
5.trapt-echo
6.yellow card-ocean avenue
7.lifehouse-hanging by a moment
8.creed-one last breath
9.goo goo dolls-broadway
10.goo goo dolls-big machine
11.something about you-five for fighting
12.staind-so far away
13.keane-somewhere only we know
14.jay chou-qing tian(one of the few chinese songs that i like)
15.semi-charmed life-third eye blind
16.save tonight-eagle eye cherry
17.jars of clay-the eleventh hour
18.mercy me-i can only imagine
19.let's get it started-black eyed peas
20.where is the love-black eyed peas

some other songs too..but it sort of slipped my mind...basically,all songs frm planet shakers and switchfoot are nice...but i don't know the title for most of their songs.anyway,the list consists of all the secular songs dat i like lar...i like all christian songs so i can't possibly list them all ,right?(say 'Nooooooo')heh.i know i'm lame lar..the list will keep changing anyway..but yar..for now this is it.k peeps..keep ur fingers crossed dat tml i'll be in a better mood to give you a proper entry...

Hey..i'm mature! lalala

2004-07-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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i'm still wondering wad's the problem with me?

2004-07-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

i feel worse today.
I wish for once that my mum would stop bothering me and sense that i'm not in the mood to talk.
I'm wondering why i'm one of the few ppl who actually even care to meet up with my frenz.
I feel stupid among all my coursemates.
I left my file in school which contain my project.
I feel unloved.
I don't want to cry...
I really don't.
Think positive,right?
But i'm crying.

=look for the gurl with the broken smile=

2004-07-08T08:07:00.000+08:00

i'm back again.hmm..for the past week it's been pretty hectic..time passes really fast ya?next week's already fourth wk of school.i still feel like it's my first week of school.well, and also, i think at the beginning of the week i was feeling pretty down.i don't really know for wad exactly,but for everything i guess.i just keep hoping that time will turn back..things are different now.eveyone's really busy..can't see them even if we're in the same school..i really want to go back to my sec2 or sec4 days.Those were the best time of my life...i know sec4 was my O level yr..but i enjoyed last yr anyway.I think it was because it was the year where cloud9 really got back tgt and showed unity again and when my classmates started opening up and mixing with everyone.In sec3,the guys were pretty much anti-social.yeah..and over small and big stuff too..i was juz upset..probably still am..i still feel lost i guess. And i can't help feeling that cloud9 will drift apart..as much as i don't want it to happen.

Yesterday had Jam and Hop in my school..overall,it was quite fun..saw a couple of my coursemates and trena,Aishah,Jasmine,adeline and I had a really good time...lol..Sha does a good imitation of Fergie from BEP.The b-boys were really good lar...i think japanition or smth like dat.yeah...Sha was like,drooling all over them.Can't get anymore boy crazy than that. *sighz* Did chicken dance and mass dance all that..haha..sometimes it's good to feel and be silly lar..ok..in cloud9 context,all the time.Fun aside,somehow yest during jam and hop i did feel alittle uncomfortable though.There were times i felt i should hv stayed home..especially the part where they were playing Bon jovi and Guns N roses...Just don't like that particular song they were playing.But the dancing was fun..hehe..saw some siglapians too...Brandon and Brendon were there...(yeah.both of them)..plus Adilah and syed..Trena and Sha went ard pole dancing ard the guys..haha..abit crazy lar huh...after dat,the guys asked us if we wanted to hv supper..but all of us wanted to go home...so there...my week for you...hopefully next week will be a better one.. =(

another quiz ~!

2004-07-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

Which kind of candy are you?
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wad's da problem? confused

2004-07-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

i thought for a moment you all cannot access my website sia. heh..i was talking to my bao bei cloud9 on MSN..and they were complaining they can't access my blog.Turned out to be i typed the wrong URL..and they were like,'nat ar,you linked ur blog to Aaron's bible site?' *diaoz*

anyway,it's been a few days since i last wrote.Firstly,noticed any difference on my blog? i juz added a tag-board and added some links..lol..so happy..kelly helped me out..yeah..*hugs*

i'm beginning to settle down in poly.Not quite used to it yet,but i'm not gonna hv a breakdown or identity crisis..don't worry!i still miss my cloud9 awfully painfully lots..but my new frenz are great..they make time in poly pass faster.I still don't quite like the curriculum, though.Everybody hv different break time, it's confusing.I don't get to see Maybelline and Ginli anymore...wondering who they are?They're my sec4H partners-in-crime.haha..not really lar..juz that they sat beside and behind me throughtout the whole of sec4..so i'm quite close to them too.

The subjects that i'm studying now are great..they're all pretty interesting.Alright,including communications and media marketing..only that it's hard to grasp what MR.D is teaching.The rest are ok...i love essential graphics and media and society.The MacLab is so cool....and so is photoshop.Only thing is dat Mr Toh teaches quite fast and nobodyunderstandswadhe'ssaying. (i mean, nobody understands wad he's saying ) hehe..alrighty...Take care ppl..going to turn in for the night..soon.. =)

quiz i took

2004-07-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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burps it's 10.49pm but i've yet to digest my dinner..so full..

2004-07-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

In case you're wondering wad my title is about...i was having dinner at Country Manor wif my parents juz now..i had the full set completed with dessert.lol..very nice sia..I had lasagne..vanilla coke..mushroom soup..the bez part was the dessert. BROWNIEeeeeee!!!ok..to be exact..it was a brownie with a single scoop of vanilla ice-cream.The brownie was warm and it was topped wif hot fudge....*yum yum*

school's ok.got my project grp...they're ok..everything's ok.noticed that i'm not really excited abt school?dat's becos i'm not.not really.My project group..the guys are ok lar..but the girls...it's not that they're ppl i don't like or wad lar..i like them..they're fine..but i'm juz not their sort of person.get it? Got a pretty boring tutor for graphics fundamental.for 4 hrs straight somemore. *peng san*

miss Diana,vicky and YP so much.plus bell too...hope i'll see them soon....diana!hope you hv fun at ur camp ok?don't care abt those MINAHS...you're far more intellctually superior den them..haha..don't need to sink to their level..so wad if you call urself die-anna? If ppl judge you before they even get to know you,den it's not worth to even associate with them..and they laughing becos of the way you talk?they juz think it's funny becos they've nv heard such good english before lar..and emelia...love you loads lar..wadever it is..i'll always be there for you...to kelly..really glad i got to know you.If it weren't for Gina and you i won't know who else i can be close with..*muakz* and to my other friends..all of you..take care of yourselves...appreciate each and every single one of you..God bless!

Joy of the Lord will be my strength......and i need it too..

2004-06-30T22:53:00.001+08:00

Did i say i was stressed last week?This week the pressure juz doubled..i've currently three projects on hand and the topic's so broad i don't know where to start.Topic?anything to do wif mass media.Like DUH!!!(and the name of my course is...?)To further increase my distress,my MS word totally backed out on me...can't type my marketing journal.complete crappy computer.(CCC)

anyway,today after school i bump into vince and he passed me his marketing journal.NOT FAIR...dat lucky duck only has to write 1 pg for each entry.ours 3 pgs ok!After which we saw this band perform..i think the lead singer spoilt the whole thing..the music was perfectly fine..but the guy ar..can't sing for nuts sia.somemore he sang those songs dat i liked..'the reason' by hoobastank,'this love' by maroon 5 and 'here without you' by 3 doors down..arrghhh...they were perfectly nice songs until they got up the stage and sang it!Now i'm not gonna vote them into the top 20 countdown chart anymore!ok..i noe...BIG DEAL right?

ate lunch wif alvin and johnathan...den later in the afternoon bumped into Trena and Sha..haha..so glad to see them..den we hang out for awhile..wif Kai..until 6.30..den we decided to leave..more updates another time..today hv to sleep early..tml lessons start at 8am!arrghhh...until 6pm..sucka!

but i guess despite all this busy schedules..all i hv to do is to draw my strength frm Him and it'll be more den sufficient for mi.easier said den done,but yeah..i'll try.. =) nitez peeps..

cloud9

2004-06-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

well..i've decided to dedicate this entry to you gurls..i know all of you are trying to fit into a new environment right now.so am I...some of you are having orientation right now..some like me,hv already started school and bell is still working.It sure feels different being in a poly..everything is pretty much on ur own and stuff..and we hv different break time so the only ppl you'll probably always get to hang out wif are ur classmates..i miss the times when we would gather during recess..becos we share the same break at 10.40...and stuff like dat.where we would juz occupy a table and talk crap for 1/2 hr and go up to class and write letters to each other..sighz..this are little things that we did lar..but now dat i come to think of it,it sums up to a big amount..big amount it means to me..to be able to juz spend them wif you all..sighz..to cloud9 : who've been with me for 4 yrs...i'm glad we lasted so long..esp wif 9 ppl..it's hard..but we're still tgt..cherish you gurls a lot..it's really weird not having you all ard me..esp. hard since diana is not in TP becos we've been classmates since sec2.To cherish...pls pls pls...come back this december!!!!!!to Trena,Sha and Eunice: glad we're in this tgt...although we still don't see each other as often anymore..hope next sememster our schedules will be better lar...esp eunice and mine...always clash one..cannot meet at all..to Vicky and YP :love you gurls..whether you're at the east or west!(trying to be lame becos YP happens to study at the north)..you all are one of the best things that has ever happened to me...don't wanna lose you gurls!!! *muakz*

STRRES...STREES...STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-06-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

kk..i'll start with what happened yesterday first..yesterday had lecture for CM marketing..abit lost there..'wad you are selling as opposed to wad the customers want?' *diaoz* before dat had lunch with shawn,mingzhen,kelly,terrence and some others..trena joined us later and followed by haikel and vincent..we were all comparing EZ-link card,IC and matric cards..luckily by the time vincent and haikel came i kept my EZ-link liao..haha..den i bluff them dat i din bring..good thing though..vince kept laughing at Trena's pic and she din look half as bad as me.lol..abit bo liao lar we all..lol..

today...had one hr lecture on essential graphic software..lecturer very funny..he made this magic trick..don't know how he did it leh..somehow he knew which card we took..ya lar..abit sua ku right?(mountain turtle)talking abt being sua ku,on wednesday i was having breakfast with some of the CMM gurls..(and 1 guy..poor nick)..den this lady came to us wif a PDA and took our orders..somemore we didn't even hv to leave our seats at all..so quite cool ar..so all of us were like..'wah!PDA to take orders ar!In kopitiams the auntie will ask you...eh..wad you want ar?den shout across to the guy..one milo!(right in front of ur face)...'so Angel(one of the CMM gurl) was like,'how they change the screen from breakfast menu to lunch ar?'den we were telling her dat it would juz slide up when it turns 11...den she was so impressed..she said,'wah!so interesting!'haha..den i called her sua ku..(kana beaten though)

wad else?today had to wake up early for this live broadcast thing..for newsradio 93.8FM..it discussed abt local Uni and overseas Uni..i think basically the panel didn't answer our questions entirely..esp this guy frm NTU..he kept harping abt engineering courses when all of us were frm mass comm..and he pronounced 'curriculum' as 'curry-culum'..bought textbks today..confusing ones too..dunno wad they're talking abt seriously...esp the graphic design ones..then played basketball for awhile..with kelly,vince,shawn,adam all..but mi BB cannot make it..cannot play with guys..they use so much force..scares mi quite a lot to snatch the ball frm them..but anyway,i don't hv much sports inclination lar..haha..CMI right?

1pm..stop press meeting..hv to think of storyline by monday.. =(
(btw,stop press is my school's official newspaper) and even in poly,the journal writing doesn't stops..but now,it's journal entries abt marketing concepts and what you've learnt and all..well..i think dat's abt it lar..*yawns* later peeps...

ZzzZ day..

2004-06-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

almost couldn't wake up today..when the alarm rang i thought it was still 4am or smth..today go to school for one hr only..so boring..after that had breakfast with some of the gurls..then went to buy stuff for Journalism 1..my looney tunes notepad..ya lar.i noe childish lar..but the other notepads were really ugly leh..haiz.so you can imagine me interviewing tertiary students wif a looney tunes notepad...yeah.

Now sitting in the library..waiting for aishah to finish school..dunno wad's taking her so long..already 2.05pm liao.she's supposed to finish class by 2..and normally the lecturers finish before the allocated time..but knowing sha,probably taking her own sweet time walking here.Don't worry..she won't get to read dis.she's juz another computer illiterate...lol...

still didn't join any cca..really don't know wad to join..think i'm not really sports inclined..o wanted to join Tennis..but..i suck at it..so i'm juz in stop press for the moment..i think i can't handle so many ccas too...arrghh..3rd day of school and i'm already so stressed up..my course mates are all so brainy...they're those like,8 and 9 pointers..for L1R4..*faints*

k lar..i'll try to make it a point to update the blog asap..but maybe can't log in as often cause of school work and all..but first wk of school very cho bo..don't hv tutorial all dat..haha..kk..Sha is here..take care ppl..

yeah yeah..wadever..i hate thinking of titles

2004-06-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

ok..i got caught.RED-HANDED..someone saw that the idiotic part was applicable to him..lol..ok lar..sorrie shawn..dat's to some ppl only lar..i juz said that becos i was feeling pretty anti Y chromosome yesterday..lol..

2nd day of school.APEL super boring..thankfully for only 8 wks..we hv to write some *ahem* life mission thing..then got this guy write his life mission..and he planned wad he was gonna do 5 yrs,20 yrs and 80 yrs down the road.WHOA..so confident he'll live dat long sia...'i wanna live a life of fufillment..of undying passion'..blah blah..lol..

nth much happened today lar..got a call frm my senior..got stop press meeting..blah blah..maybe briefing abt culling pigeons in TP or smth..lol...and shawn wants to read wad i've got to say abt him now so i've got to post this..till then...*love you all*

...got a taste of poly life today..

2004-06-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

hey peeps..sorry lar..due to my computer illiterate tendency,i've decided to change to blogspot..i don't know how good this is,but i guess i'll gif it a shot.if i still find this difficult,then i think i'll swear my hands off writing blogs..remain low tech..lol..CMI right?lol..

nvm.Let me continue with what happened today..well,today's my first day in poly..(as you can see frm my title..ya..go and LOOK lar..don't be so ignorant)my course's great..i'm glad i'm doing smth dat i love..although i still don't know what i want to be ultimately..will see how it goes..alright.my course mates are really nice and approachable and all..yeah..JUZ lIKE ME..hehe..so there's not much segregation between ppl frm different classes.everyone juz sit wif ppl they're comfortable wif..i'm in TB016 btw.but yeah..that's not important lar..today's 2 hr lecture pass really quickly..i didn't really feel i was attending a class at all.but wadever..it's juz the beginning..it'll get worse..(OH YEAH..)weird thing was..when my lecturer(MS chua..or MRS) was like,'ok..so i'll
you all on wednesday morning'..and everyone starting stuffing their things into their bags and standing up,i was thinking,'is dis really me in poly already?'man,i felt really old sia.

it's pretty cool..i still get to see some of my frenz around the campus..but one thing dat sucks is the timetable..everyone hv their breaks at different time and it's really hard to meet up wif Sha,trena and eunice.still prefer secondary school.i know lar,abit psycho right?no uniforms to wear already still wanna complain..but i miss my class and all lar..cos in poly you don't see ur classmates always..not for 6 hrs each day.and also change pretty often..so..arrghh..yeah.so you muz be wondering so is my day good anot?i think overall it's a yes lar..abit of hippcups here and there but it's fine...

p/s:so sad..my course only got 20 guys..out of 93 ppl..was hoping it'll be 50-50..but nvm..they're idiotic enough i guess.don't need 30 more of them...lol(i hope they don't get to read this..haha..)